Pondering my failure to manifest something I wanted, I felt the familiar feeling of frustration rising. Then a different thought came to mind: the memory of something improbable I had successfully manifested. Then another such remembrance came, and another! Perhaps, I thought, I haven't done so badly after all.
The fact is that I have gotten the vast majority of the things I have wanted in life. They didn't always appear in the way I had expected, and often not the time frame I preferred, but they did show up.
Looking at my life from a surface perspective, most people would not be particularly impressed. I don't have 20 million dollars, a post-graduate degree, a designer wardrobe, or a palatial mansion. But the truth is that I haven't ever wanted any of these things. (No, not even the 20 million dollars, which would carry too much responsibility for my tastes.)
Here is an eclectic selection of improbable things I wanted and have manifested:
The sleek, pocket size, wire-free phone, which I envisioned at age five and was told did not exist (it didn't, then), is something I now use daily.
As a 12-year-old who lived in Virginia and had little opportunity to travel, I heard the song Ventura Highway (by the group America) and yearned to visit Ventura, California. Three years later, my dad moved there and bought my first-ever airline ticket so I could visit him. We rode on Ventura Highway many times.
In 2009 I felt a strong impulse to get to know some of the members of my favorite (moderately well-known) rock band. Through a series of unexpected events, this happened. One of them offhandedly suggested I write a song, which turned out to be the first of many – thereby fulfilling my childhood desire to write songs.
As a young adult, my worst fear was that I would end up staying in my hometown and not have any real adventures. My circuitous life path has led me to reside in nine different US states, with adventures galore! I now live almost 3000 miles from my hometown.
Of the major desires I've had that did not manifest, I now understand why they would not have been beneficial in the long run. I was, for instance, highly motivated to become a special-agent investigator for the US government. I came close to being accepted into the training programs of two organizations, but it seemed like my timing was always out of sync with their hiring. In the 1990s, such a career seemed like a good idea. As the 2000s progressed, it clearly did not, at least not for me. Mid-career, I likely would have found myself engaged in endeavors that are counter to my values and intent.
Regarding several romantic relationships that I thought I couldn't live without, I've noticed a direct correlation between the strength of my (past) desire for them to work and my present relief that they did not.
And here's the important point: I'm not so special! My guess is the most everyone has actually manifested the majority of what they have desired. The things we haven't created yet and still want, we very likely can have. And they probably will show up faster if we give ourselves credit for our accomplishments.
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